The Friday shooting in Connecticut is making me angry today. Well, not the shooting but events surrounding it. I probably should be angry about the shooting itself but the shooter is too dead and too distant and most likely too in need of pity for me to be angry with him.
What am I angry about? I'm angry about all the anti-religion I am coming across. I have faith. I try to live it. I dont have all the answers, I dont try to pretend I have the answers, I dont know why a loving God allows such as this and I am happy to say I dont know so I am more than tired of the aggression that comes from some quarters. Save your anger and use it for something productive.
I am also angry (admittedly it's irrational) because my exposure to the internet today is full of parents talking about how hard it was to send their kids off to school. Really? one man goes into one school and does a horrible thing and people think it's going to happen again today, to their child? Tonight those same people will be on facebook defending their right to bear arms. It could never be their gun that is used for a massacre. It could never be them who accidentally kills their child or their child who accidentally kills his brother.
People are asking why their school is business as usual, why is Friday's tragedy not acknowledged, why they havent received an email from the school ......
for what? to assure them it wont happen at their school? that is not a promise that can be made, no matter how remote the possibility.
Somebody says that it's not gun laws that should be reviewed, it is school security and at the same time people talk about how to make their kids feel safe.
What kind of messages do we send our children when their schools have metal detectors and steel bars and security guards? Are we telling them that school is safe when we do that? Are we gifting them a life free from fear? When we hug them tighter and walk them to school the day after a tragedy are we showing them that they are safe or are we showing them that we are afraid and that they should be too?
When people have guns in their homes it is because of fear, fear that we might need to defend our families. Friday's murders almost certainly were caused by some kind of fear, fear that life would never get better or fear of never being understood or fear of unrealistic expectations. Something.
The world is not always a safe place but we need to try to act like it is; if we face the world with trust and belief in people we subtly ask them to rise to that expectation, if we face the world with fear and dread we will see problems that aren't there and we might respond to imaginary problems with real action and when we do that we are only separated from Adam Lanza by the degree of our response.
As for me, I suppose I need to figure out exactly why I am so annoyed by the innocently fearful responses of a few of nameless, faceless Americans.......