'ello,
i'm tired of my last post but don't really have a new one so inspired by the competitions that seem popular right now i thought i'd ask:
tell me about a time when you felt (or looked) like the picture on my last post?
no, i don't have a closing date, when i have something to say i'll post again
and no, it's not a competition but i'll say nice things if i like your story
irresistable, isn't it?
have fun
Eurgh, it's not much of a story, but the last time I really felt that way was when Hedgie was a toddler and I was stuck living out in Queens, NY, which for those of you not in the know is in its entirety (and it's a big place) one of the most benighted piles of poo on planet earth. I didn't know anyone, didn't have a driver's license, Sarge worked from 1 pm every day to 11 at night, and I was all alone all day and evening. Hedgie and I spent a lot of time grocery shopping in the horrid ghetto grocery store, where the meat was dubious and the produce always bruised, and lingering in the aisles of the local CVS pharmacy sniffing shampoo.
ReplyDeleteThat picture is exactly how I felt for two long, lonely, depressed, wretched years. Man, it sucked.
And there you have it...oof.
p.s. sorry for the major bummer, Kylie. Now that I've embarrassed myself thoroughly, let's hear from the rest of you!
ReplyDeleteleah,
ReplyDeletei wasnt expecting sunshine and light !
it sounds like a time best left behind......is it funny yet?
♥
Well here goes ....
ReplyDeleteIt was about sixteen or seventeen years ago when I was working in a really wretched Gov't Dept. The bosses were all stressed out and really unfriendly and the staff were totally demoralised. Nobody smiled much and it was a dog eat dog world. At about the same time i was having some personal family issues to deal with. So every day I would be going from joyless home to joyless work and back again. It got so bad that i seriously thought ... well best not to go there, hey? Every day was just crap from sunup to sundown. The only way i could handle it all was by taking one day at a time and telling myself that this nightmare has got to end soon. It can't go on forever. It all stopped when I was finally redeployed to another department and stuff at home was sorted out.
Kylie,
This ain't fun. Let's have fun here.
It wasn't really a joyless home.
ReplyDeleteIt was just how I felt about things during thaat time. Sorry Jo.
Okay. amazing comments, now I have to go back and read the question. Be right back.
ReplyDeleteNow.
ReplyDeleteI'm feeling very low and burdened. The house is too big and too much of a responsibility, I've lost almost $100,000, I need an assistant, I'm exhausted, I'm still numb and tingling, Rob is working in another county, staying with his mom and I'm alone to take care of everything, every day. I can't seem to find my way. I'm scared. And I'm tired. But then I read Leah's and Mark's comment and put everything in perspective. I'm okay. I'll be fine eveuntually.
Great post. Thanks for asking.
Love you. XO
You know, Kylie, I'm kind of enjoying this post. It's not exactly cheery, but it's a little group catharsis.
ReplyDeleteI'm supposed to be at the park this very minute, but I'm not (rough morning). I'm leaving, but thought I'd check here first because you'd have words of wisdom to fix my day. You don't, but Leah does!!! I agree with her. Somehow simply saying it helped.
ReplyDeleteLove you darling. Hope you're having a good day or night. I'm always confused with Aussie time.
Hi Leah!
Hi Mark!
XO
I think I feel or look like that picture now. I am sitting at work. I haven't had a lot of sleep and it is 7 hours into my workday. It is only Wednesday and I wish it was Friday already. I missed work yesterday because I spent Monday night in the ER with Nathan. He had an asthma attack and scared the BeJesus out of me. So no sleep Monday night. I got 2.5 hours yesterday, and I had a fitfull rest last night because Nathan was afraid to sleep in his own bed out of fear of waking up and not being able to breath again, so I let him sleep with me. He had to be right next to me with his head on my shoulder, and my arm wrapped around him. Sometime in the middle of the night, Forrest came and climbed in on the other side of me. He had to have his head on my other shoulder. SO there I was flat on my back with arms outstretched and a kid on each shoulder. I was staring at the ceiling, wishing for my alarm clock to go off. So, yes, that is me right now. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
ReplyDeleteSuze,
ReplyDeleteIt will all get better. Just call me if you need a little sunshine. I'm sure I'll make you laugh, and you'll make me laugh, and then we will both feel better.
Hi Kylie,
ReplyDeleteHi Leah,
Hi Suzanne,
Hi Cecile,
I arrived early for work today and found myself here. So I had best get cracking. Perhaps we should start a support group?
I'll check in again tonight.
Hi Leah!
ReplyDeleteHi Mark!
Hi Cece!
Hi Suzanne!
Hi Kylie!
I love this post for some reason. It's good to let it go. Just put it out into the wind. It matters. I haven't told anyone any of this, but I told all of you. Why? I think because it feels safe to do so. And because no matter what I say, you'll help me find my way.
I love you all. Very, very much.
XO Me