Monday 1 March 2010

the diary 6


another thing that has changed for me here is that i no longer want to be taken care of so much. when i first came here i was just a girl, painfully aware that i was away from home and limited by language. these days i have some life experience and i have been here enough times to have a good idea how a lot of things are done. i am also less afraid of making silly mistakes and i am confident that i can get by in many situations.

all this is to say that i am reasonably confident here these days and though it is well meant i sometimes miss my independence when too much is done for me.

i rode a pushbike the two short blocks to a local "restoran" to buy breakfast this morning. it caused some mirth but it was nice to something alone and successfully and i didnt mind being the joke, i long ago realised that i am the strange white woman.

10 comments:

  1. I'd probably make some jokes about u wobbling up the street if I saw u riding a bike too :)

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  2. it's true i cant ride like a malaysian: slowly with parasol and live chooks

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  3. I know what you mean about not wanting too much being done for you. Why are they like that anyway? Is it just the local etiquette or do they somehow not appreciate your independence?

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  4. hey nick,
    its etiquette and its a good thing but sometimes i almost feel controlled

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  5. hmmmm.... too much, too little... yer gender has always baffled me..

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  6. Slowly with parasol? I couldn't possibly! I have to maintain some kind of speed in order to keep upright!

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  7. zack
    we're less baffling if you ask lots of questions

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  8. Lacking the will to be free is worse than being the strange white woman Kylie.

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  9. mark,
    never mind about that, i dont fight for much in life but i've battled long and hard for freedom

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