Thursday 16 July 2009

being tired and cranky as i have been lately isnt a good thing. worse for the people around me than for me i think, but what a wonder it has done for my blogging! if you all can manage to listen to my carping and moaning, that is.
the only way i can really deal with an extreme emotion, good or bad, is to find the words to tell the story and find words i will because if i dont i will burn until i do.
in good times happy, often nonsensical words will spill out of me and i will talk so fast that my tongue and my brain lose each other but i fear that if i go slower my joy will be diluted. in bad times i still talk fast, endeavouring to spill the poison from my mind before it can hurt me. it's a dangerous thing because i might spill the poison on somebody special but hopefully i am becoming a bit wiser about that....
anyhow, i got tired and i got angry and i remembered how to use words. now that i remember it shouldnt take too long to find some happy nonsense.......

7 comments:

  1. Kylie,
    You have my email address, and I think we may be soul sisters. So if you ever feel the need to just bare your soul to someone that understands and will listen, Please do not hesitate.

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  2. You didn't add that you talk LOUD too :)

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  3. I get into a talk cycle when I'm angry and out of sorts too. I don't like the feeling at all--that out-of-control talking.

    I always hope my family forgives me--I guess they do.

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  4. NA, be kind to your mum. She talks LOUD so that your young ears will understand.

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  5. leah,
    out of control talking can be such a bad thing, cant it? hopefully i'm getting more controlled on the content but i like to let fly on the delivery :)

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  6. Out of control talking can be a bad thing. I've been off blogging for a few days and have to figure out if Leah's really pissed at me. It's not that I talk too fast or too loud, it's just that I talk!!!

    You and Cece are soul sisters. I know you both. Trust me. You're soul sisters.

    I love you darling.

    XO

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